I've never been one to elaborate my feelings. It's hard for me to share, and especially when the feelings are coming from a dark place. I feel like as if the world as I know it has been incinerated, and now I guess I'm trying to survive. Breathing is hard, doing
anything is extremely difficult .. and getting out form this dark place seems impossible. So I'm just going one day at a time, and hopefully that will make things better. I'm sorry about being vague, but it's just not possible for me to share what's going on yet.. I'm not ready, I don't even fully know what's going on. All I have is questions, and far too much time to think.
The only ray of light is that I'm going to the gym every day. I don't eat enough, but I'm trying. What I do eat though, is healthy. I haven't resorted to chocolate or ice cream. The only time I can forget about this dark place is when I'm running so hard I see stars. So for now, it's just one foot in front of the other.
Oh honey - feel better. We are all here for you.
ReplyDeleteI am not a great one for praying anymore and I may not have the greatest faith in a religious sense, but I do have a deep belief in love, friendship, compassion and kindness. I am sending that to you in great depth. You are in my thoughts, and my imperfect prayers. May the comfort of your beautiful country and awesome hikes draw you some courage.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Maren...
ReplyDeleteSending you wishes for healing, Maren....
ReplyDeleteSending you warm and positive thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you are in such a dark place :( I hope sending you healing energy will give you even a moment of peace. Keep taking care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI hope nothing horrible has happened. I hope today is a good day.
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I do hope this is a place you can recover from very quickly. Is it physically dark where you are as well? I lived in Alaska for several years and the long, dark days were bad. I had a friend who would sit under some sort of light which apparently helped her dark moods. Just a thought. Do take care of yourself. :)
ReplyDeleteBless you - often we have to go through the darkest of times to fully appreciate when we reach the other side to light. May your journey be short.
ReplyDeleteAw girl, remember you are strong. Whatever it is that has gotten you in this dark place will pass, and life will move on as you tell it to. The next few weeks may be rocky as you figure things out and where to go from here, but remember to take care of yourself, because when this all comes to an end, you still have to live with you.
ReplyDeletePositive thoughts heading your way.
Be kind to yourself and seek what is making the dark overcome the light xx Always here for you x
ReplyDeleteI know this feeling, and it is oh so hard. You feel like you will never climb out of it, but you will. And you do it by doing just what you said. You take one day at a time. You focus on the good things that you can focus on. Before you know it you will look around and be in a good place again.
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We are all here thinking of you xxxxx
ReplyDeleteBeing in such a dark place can feel so lonely and so endless, Maren. I'm glad you were able to share your pain with us. I'm also glad that you're being kind to yourself by continuing to exercise and by not resorting to chocolate for a momentary cure. I hope it helps, at least a little, to know that you have many people around the world caring about you and wishing for the pain and darkness to pass -- as it will, no matter how intense it feels right now -- and that you will have new hope and good experiences beginning again soon.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are stuggling right now Maren, know we are here for you to vent and to listen and I wish you happier times. Keep your chin up pretty lady, better days are to come <3
ReplyDeleteBig huge and arm to arm hugs to you!!!!!!!!! I wish I had your enthusiasm to make it to the gym - so proud of you!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHi Maren! No matter how dark your mood, try to get outside each day to soak in some sunshine. Sunshine is a mood lifter.
ReplyDelete:-) Marion
Take care of yourself. Keep moving. Take the time to find out what's what and deal with it the best you can. There are people out there to help if you need it. And we are here to listen and lend a shoulder when you need it. Prayers for you Maren. Blessings my friend!
ReplyDeleteHugs Maren, sending good thoughts your way...
ReplyDeleteDarkness won't last forever. Coming out of it may be painful, but it will happen.
ReplyDeleteI can totally identify with the darkness. I've been there way to long....and clawing my way toward the light.
ReplyDeleteYou can do this. Make yourself find one thing everyday that is good. Sounds crazy, but it really does work!!!!!!
Way to go for continuing with the gym. You are taking care of yourself!
Stor klem til deg, Maren :)
ReplyDeleteJeg er her når du måtte trenge det!
Thinking of you and sending warm, healing vibes to you....can you feel it? Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteVery sorry Maren, but know that one foot in front of the other, is good enough sometimes.
ReplyDeleteWhat ever it is that's haunting you, I truly hope it will resolve soon. Take good care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteOh, I am so sorry you are going through whatever you are going through. We all have these moments in life- and you either give up and let it consume you, or you just survive it one day at a time, one foot in front of the other. Hang in there and keep looking for the sun.
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