I've never been one to elaborate my feelings. It's hard for me to share, and especially when the feelings are coming from a dark place. I feel like as if the world as I know it has been incinerated, and now I guess I'm trying to survive. Breathing is hard, doing anything is extremely difficult .. and getting out form this dark place seems impossible. So I'm just going one day at a time, and hopefully that will make things better. I'm sorry about being vague, but it's just not possible for me to share what's going on yet.. I'm not ready, I don't even fully know what's going on. All I have is questions, and far too much time to think.
The only ray of light is that I'm going to the gym every day. I don't eat enough, but I'm trying. What I do eat though, is healthy. I haven't resorted to chocolate or ice cream. The only time I can forget about this dark place is when I'm running so hard I see stars. So for now, it's just one foot in front of the other.