Firstly, let me say this ....I've said it before, but I really have to say it again.. the level of support I get from you guys is humbling. I write this blog for me, but having people out there that genuinely care about how I'm doing .. that gives me a warm fuzzy feeling. This is hands down the hardest thing I've ever gone through, but I've received so much support and love from both expected and unexpected places. It means the world.
I'm happy that I haven't let my exercise and eating habits go during this .. that says a lot. In the past I would have run for the fridge.. I would find comfort in an ice cream bucket and with burgers&fries. Now, I've found it in the gym, the woods and in the mountains. How amazing is that? However, I battle a lot of fears.. Stupid thoughts like, will I ever really be okay? Is there true love for me out there? Getting divorced is a massive blow to my self-esteem, and I don't know how to rebuild it. I honestly don't know. I know I will get through this, but I also know that there will be scars from it all .. just not sure how big they will be yet. Time will tell though, and like I've said so many times .... I just go one day at a time.
Yesterday I explored my home town with my friend Vibeche. I can't believe I was going to leave this place. :) Seeing that spring is coming makes me feel better about the battles that are to come. I'll make it. :) I love this city so much, and I would really encourage every single one of you to come check it out!